MY LIFE 3
SESSION THREE — MAPPING MY ENERGY
This is a link to the ‘Principles’ tutorial video - ‘My Life - Session 3 - Principles.’
Alongside the Principes video, I have included the ‘Activation Narrative,’ which is part of this session, in the self-guided workbooks. The stories I tell aren’t comfortable, nor are they trauma porn. They are designed to elicit a specific response from the reader, tied to the topic our clients are working on in this session.
The Third Blue Rule:
“There are few things as sad as a life without passion. I’ve discovered over the years that you can motivate almost anyone, but you can’t easily incentivize inertia.”
― Robert (Sherpa) Millar
This session references crisis at its extreme edge—including child endangerment. This program is for mapping before the storm, not navigating in the middle of it.
It was time to run down the stairs again. I hated this part of my life, yet it never occurred to me to do anything else. My older sister also hated me doing it, and repeatedly begged me not to, and when we became adults and were far away from that place, she admitted she was always terrified I’d get killed at some point. I was nine or ten, and one of the dangerous adults in our world was on the verge of exploding, so all of us kids ran upstairs to hide. At that point, we didn’t know about our half-brother, so I was the second oldest. Like many families with a similar history, we had developed solid roles for each of us kids to play in the family. My self-imposed role was to make sure everyone was upstairs, then go back downstairs and distract the monster. (That was the name I had for the enraged adult.) Needless to say, that wasn’t the best strategy to employ, and it rarely ended well for me. However, I am wired to feel responsible, and this was my way of fulfilling that role at that time in my life. Until I was 16, I found similar ways to stand in the gap, to take the world upon my shoulders, no matter how ludicrous a sight a small, wiry street urchin looked as a cosplay Atlas. My plan for 16 was to join the army, to get as far away from that place as the military would take me, and never look back. In my mind, and in all the books I’d read, the army was the place that expected you to take a knee and bear the weight of the world on your shoulder. Throughout a challenging teenage phase, I had a passion for all things military. I talked my parents into signing the permission forms to allow them to enlist at 16. Just before the physical, I had a major asthma attack, and the recruitment officer convinced my parents that the army wasn't a place for asthmatics.
That killed for a time the place I’d poured all of my passion (energy) into for five years. I got a job in a chicken factory the day after I left school at 16, and spiraled into a chasm of despair, boredom, and self-medication. I fought the inertia with a wild life of alcohol, girls, and fighting until I reached 24.
If it hadn’t been for a spiritual awakening at 24, I think that crisis of inertia would have probably killed me by 30. Fortunately, that awakening offered me a different route, much like the military for service. To run down the stairs and do something meaningful with my life. I got sober, turned my life around, and ignited a passion to pursue God that was so intense that, despite having no formal education, I became an ordained minister, where I was expected to take a knee. When I activate that place of energy (passion), I show up as Atlas. I have never understood the people who don’t want to carry the world on their shoulders. I am deeply sad for those I see in an energetic crisis.
In the next post, we'll explore the introduction to the paradox of Extrinsic/Intrinsic conflict in My Culture.
THIS IS NOT TRAINING. IT'S CALIBRATION.
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